In the past I’ve blogged about the “alone” factor in filmmaking. As I look back I realize I was missing my own point. Back then, two years ago, I was pissed off at the alone factor. As the writer/director and sole producer of most of my films it was always up to me to get the film done. To finish.
I lamented the fact that I was basically stuck with my project until completion while many who had participated in the production were free to move on. I got it all wrong. I missed a very important lesson about self-worth.
Being the person who sticks with the project, finds additional money when needed, finds alternatives when money isn’t available, finds an editor, cuts and re-cuts the film, finds additional music, pays for festival submissions, deals with the rejection, solicits sales agents and producer reps, deal with that rejection, and ultimately finds a sales rep who is excited about the project’s potential, or finds an alternative distribution outlet — well that’s some pretty empowering stuff.
Aside from the sales rep piece above, I’ve done all these things for all my films. It hasn’t been easy, and I’ve definitely wanted to quit more than a handful of times. But those films are now in the can. And while I have everyone to thank for getting the individual pieces together required to assemble the film, I have only one person to thank and be grateful for, for seeing the film through to completion.
Now, hold on, this isn’t about being big-headed. It’s about recognizing value. My personal value to each of my projects. I’m certainly not the best writer or director. But the fact that I’ve held on and completed 13 films makes me a damn good low budget indie producer!
It’s about the value I bring to the table when I’m alone at night, re-cutting a film, searching for free music, searching for DIY distribution information, chatting up other filmmakers and getting advice for my film. I am the one doing that. I am the one who has agreed to do that. And this service has value.
Success in this industry is perceived by and filtered through a value-factor. Ever notice how quickly folks will jump ship on a project that is badly organized? Folks leave because there is no value to them in staying with the project. And rightly so.
But the value-factor extends beyond that. When great project that is nicely organized becomes stalled the value factor to those involved changes. What was once a two-month commitment may now be extended to six months, or even a year, in order to get value from the project. The participants in the project have a choice: stick with it and hope or jump ship now and cut their loses.
My value factor has changed over the years.
Back when I completed eight projects in two years (2005-2007) I was hot. There was a lot of value in working with me. Actors got work. Crew got paid. Composers got projects. And lots of people got on IMDB. Since then I’ve only completed two projects. The value isn’t the same…on the surface.
But there’s a deeper aspect to this. And this goes for actors and filmmakers. The things we learn in the process have value too. An actor learns how to separate his/herself from the crowd and standout. He/she learns how to book a job. Filmmakers should now know better how to play the filmmaking game (and all the things that entails).
I do know better. And that’s my current value: knowledge and experience. And I accept the responsibility that goes with that, which is, guaranteeing that a project is finished.
It’s actually quite empowering.